Life, Love, and the Birth of the Digital Flower

Life, Love, and the Birth of the Digital Flower

Released August 29th, 2009
Total Running Time 76:15

LLBDF was written and recorded between 2005 and 2009 during which time the current live band was formed. As the bands sound evolved so did the record. The track “Every Breath is Now” was born directly out of a live jam piece the band had been performing and the track “Making Flowers” was actually recorded as a live take. Early in the recording process Syloken was joined by Ben Carter on bass. In addition to providing many of the bass tracks on the record Carter co-wrote the music on “Life in Motion” and “Broken Minds” (which he also provided the lyrics for). LLBDF was produced and mixed by Ben Lindesmith at Zanzibar Studios.

Track List

01. Open Tunnel (02:24)
02. You Tried (06:03)
03. Broken Minds (03:57)
04. Every Breath Is Now (06:03)
05. I Don't Feel(07:36)
06. The Undeniable Truth (03:42)
07. Life in Motion (06:36)
08. Civilized (04:52)
09. Making Flowers (02:51)
10. Fade To Cycles (04:42)
11. Break the Mold (06:41)
12. Endless Beginnings (05:25)
13. You Tried (Reprise) (04:46)
14. Morning Song(10:44)

 

OPEN TUNNEL:
Lyrics by John Thomas

in the beginning you were an embryo
you weren't aware you had to know
you felt no pressure until the fresh air
and the fear which had started to take hold
you learned to speak you learned to think
and to categorize patterns into molds
you felt no pressure except the fresh air
and the fear which had started to grow
ten years ago you were an embryo
but now your starting to grow old.

YOU TRIED:
Lyrics by John Thomas

you are your hands covered in blood
from trying to play judge
over all the little ones
they don't feel they need you
those who took the burden of your trust
those who will never rise above
those whom you forgot to love
there the ones who needed you

you tried you tried to make something great
but you made to many mistakes
you tried make it a work of art
but it tore our world apart
when you gave us a human heart
but not the means to handle it

besides I'll do just what you like
I'll take it till I die
then I'll find a place to hide
and lock you deep inside of me
there I'll let you turn to dust
I hope you fade and rust
then I hope I loose your trust
so I won't feel I betrayed you

you tried you tried to make something great
but you made to many mistakes
you tried to make it a work of art
but it tore our world apart
when you gave us a human heart
but not the brains to handle it

this gravity I'm falling
couldn't tell you what I was thinking
guess I was trying not doing
(this gravity's got me thinking)
(you tried you tried)
what if she was right
(succeed and then die)
and we're both alive
(you tried you tried)
if we never tried
(you fail you die)
what's the point of this vision?

You you've got blood all over your shirt
did you think that this could really work
from our surgery to our birth
we're the ones who needed you
so please stop destroying me
try giving me what I need
like the means to eat and breathe
so we won't have to doubt you

you tried you tried to make something great
but you made too many mistakes
you tried to make it a work of art
but it tore our world apart
when you gave us a human heart
(you gave us you gave us you gave us)
but not the will to handle it

at least you can say you tried.

BROKEN MINDS:
Lyrics by Ben Carter

blacken skies
oh there's another way
why must I
try to stay
I settle for nothing
until the final end
show me why
I've got to contend

what's there to die
for hats there to pretend
there be nothing to hide from honey 'cause
we're all gonna die in the end

our beating hearts
our broken minds
show me what's out there
what's there to find
settle down
take a breath
it might be your last
one can you stop to death

what's there to die for
what's there to pretend
there be nothing to hide from honey 'cause
we're all gonna die in the end

ask me not for answers
forgiveness ask me not
tell me what's on your mind
tell me what's the point of this?

what's there to die for
what's there to pretend
there be nothing to hide from honey 'cause
we're all gonna die in the end
what's there to die for
what's there to pretend
there be nothing to hide from honey
'cause we're all gonna die in the end.

EVERY BREATH IS NOW:
Lyrics by John Thomas

I can’t stop time
maybe I can stop time

everywhere I look
everywhere I see
everybody hurts just like me

can’t stop growing
can’t stop breathing
can’t stop my bones from growing old
can’t stop thinking
can’t stop feeling
can’t stop from falling for what I need
can’t stop moving
can’t stop bleeding
can’t stop hurting for what I love
can’t stop needing
can’t stop drifting
can’t stop time from moving on

everywhere I look
everywhere I see
everybody hurts just like me

every breath I take
every breath I take in
every breath I take is now every breath I take is now.

I DON'T FEEL:
Lyrics by John Thomas

everything you want
is laying on the floor
still I watched you leave the room
you were looking for something more
this is why I've got to leave
your the only one I could not please
So I tried so hard to believe
in anyone maybe everything

but that's just my style
I'll take a bullet in the chest with a smile
to hate the sun until it goes down
does no good it always comes around

I don't feel
so I guess that makes me nothing
this one can't be for real
its probably just a waste of time
I've taken all I can take
and now its time for a change
so I search for a bigger mistake to make
another promise to break

take a deeper look
beyond that substance you took
intertwined inside your mind
take a deeper look
lay back and just relax
the time you needed has past
so take a deeper look
your a fraud and your a crook

I don't feel
I can't even imagine that I’m real
I've got no heart full of holes
no spinning out of control
no reason to fear
no attachment to soul
you, you can not see
but this lack of feeling sets me free
when you crash your emotional plane
I'll be flying high above the pain

and that's just my style
I'll take a bullet in the chest with a smile
surprisingly it doesn't hurt that much
but you wouldn't know unless you held it a while
how can this mean anything to you?
Doing the things and feeling the things like you do
disconnected it if you want to survive
let your insanity be realized.

THE UNDENIABLE TRUTH:
Lyrics by John Thomas

we're all going to die
its just a question of why
you can't deny it
its just the way of life
we're all going to die
some by the knife
if you'd be so kind sir
I'd rather loose my mind
you want to die
but you don't know why
you can't see your life slipping by

lets go

beautiful animal
so old so unknown
fade away just fly away
turn to dust
just leave

we're all going to die
don't ask me why
I don't see time passing by
you want to die
but you don't know why
you can't see your life slipping by

beautiful animal
so old so unknown
fade away just flyway
turn to dust
just leave
pack your bags
say your prayers
dim the lights
and close your eyes
if you leave now you won't be back again
if you leave now you can't come back again
if you leave now you won't be back again
if you leave now you won't be coming home again.

LIFE IN MOTION:
Lyrics by John Thomas

take a look it's a book
be careful not to bite the hook
it's not enough to say you meant to something
you've got to say it
You've got to mean it you've got to feel it
you've got to be it
you can't just dream it
it's in your eyes
it's in your skin
it's sick it's a bitch
it's life in motion

breakdown under the sun
the beautiful place where the ugly begun
in the middle of a thought
in the middle of the road
for lack of a word he called it love
he said “here it is it's the best it can be
it's here it's now that makes it perfect for me”
he stalked out his pray
he sank his teeth in
he watched his love die
before it began

if this it what it is to be real
if this is what it means to feel
if this is what it is to be real
then show me why I should feel

I see it in everything
I see it in everything
everything that goes up must come down
life in motion makes a beautiful sound
everything that is born will die
life in motion is heaven design
so let heaven decide
life in motion makes a beautiful sound...

if this is what it is to be real
if this is what it means to feel
if this is what it is to be real
then show me why I should feel

show me why I should feel.

CIVILIZED:
Lyrics by John Thomas

like an ant with a pie
he's more than satisfied
like a man with a vision
he's convinced he's going to die
I might help you
if you rescued my life
I'd make you a person
I would make you civilized

I might just help you
if you swallowed my pride
to make the discussion
to be modified
you would be nothing
if it weren't for my eyes
so down on your knees
become civilized.

MAKING FLOWERS:

….

FADE TO CYCLES:
Lyrics by John Thomas

dreams of life come to an end
I feel nothing I feel cleansed
into nothing I will go
fade to cycles still unknown
have you listened to the wind lately
did it give you the time of day
have you listened to the wind
did I pass the judgement here
did I make my motives clear
did I ask the questions right
is there darkness is there light
fade to cycles fade to cycles fade to cycles

have you listened to the wind lately
did it give you the time of day
have you listened to the wind lately
did it have something to say
where I stop I still don't know
ever watching endings slow
where I've been I'm still not sure
put no thought to where I'll go
fade to cycles..

this creation its not ours
we are it that's in our hearts
will you help me will you stay
will you watch me fade away
fade to cycles still unknown
see your futures fully grown
fall in love and face defeat
note your heart skips not a beat
you are nothing if you fade
you are nothing if you stay
as your sight fades into gray
observe the morals of decay
love and kindness hate and pain
all these years of useless shame
lonely vaults of unused rage
into nothing it will fade
fade to cycles fade to cycles fade to cycles fade to cycles.

BREAK THE MOLD:
Lyrics by John Thomas

stare deep at the wall
try hard not to fall
relax when you bleed
try hard not to scream
pretend its a dream
ignore the things I need
think for just a little bit
what is this? is it innocent?

remind time to pass
forget to relax
crawl back to the task
of forgetting where your at

don't be me
don't be you
don't forget to break the mold
loose your life
end the game
before we loose our souls
don't be me
don't be you
don't forget to break the mold
freeze a frame of innocents
before we loose our souls

don't be me
don't be you
don't forget to look clues
don't be me
don't be you
don't forget to see this through
don't be me
don't be you
don't forget to change your view
don't be me
don't be you
don't forget they lied to you
don't be me
don't be you
just believe look for clues
don't be me
don't be you
don't forget they lied to you

don't be me
don't be me
don't be me
don't be me
don't be me
don't be you
don't forget to see the truth.

ENDLESS BEGINNINGS:
Lyrics by John Thomas

this is the time to throw away lies
and look at the facts we know through unfiltered eyes
the wants the tears the needs the years
reasons excuses beliefs and fears
all your life you've been told to just pick a road
but you run out of luck when your body gets stuck with no mind
your life your love your wisdom your blood
your need to believe your need to fit in
throw them away its time to begin

all I need now is to know everything
there is to know but first
I need to know love to know why it hurts
then I'll be ready to become the universe

tell me about life love and the birth of this human ambition
and how does it tie to the emotional logic of our intuition
what is this need to believe we can take possession?
when Love is not ours to control mold or break into submission
why is there life love and this internal need to seek perfection?
Was I wasting my time filling my mind with unnecessary questions
what if you found out that there was no end to this game?
What if you found out that love was rooted in pain?
long after the years have lost their charm
and all the tears have dried up and turned to stone
your body calls it a day and makes its way home
still father time just keeps moving on
all your pictures of her fade away and turn to dust
and all those theory’s you thought you knew have been proven wrong
they plant your seed deep in the earth
and watch the flowers give you a second birth.

YOU TRIED (REPRISE)
Lyrics by John Thomas

you always seem to glide right through
like you had nothing hard to do
until your world fell on top of you
and you came scratching for a way out
its time for you to say goodbye
you've got nothing left inside
so now I don't want to hear you cry
its just noise for me to tune out

you tried and pass or fail you died
what did you do with your life
did you make it a work of art
did it tear your world apart?
Did you not trust in your human heart
to try its best to handle it

sometimes you make me sad enough to cry
its hard to care if you die
I wouldn't even wave goodbye
just release you from your burdens
I swear I've grown to old to care
you come and go like air
and though your something rare
there is a million more not like you

you tried since your birth I've watched you die
I watched you create a new life
you tossed away a work of art
when things just fell apart
you didn't trust in your human heart
to try its best to handle it.

MORNING SONG:
Lyrics by John Thomas

sunrise, I heard a melody
I heard a song
it made me think
of all the times
that I was wrong
I felt a dream
of inner peace
I was alone
still I slept
by the shore
until you came along
you woke me up
with the stereo
and the smell of tea
now I find
when I close my eyes
I want to leave

what if by some twist of fate
we got to relive mistakes
are we together right now?
Are we together right now?

I've seen this show
a million times
its about a life
but the plot twist is
every time the hero dies

can we keep it together somehow
can we keep this together now
are we together right now...

the sun shines
and now you find
nothing close to you
you break in half
you fall apart
from your own abuse
if time untied
you see her eyes
and you fall in
now I wish I could
just fall asleep
to the morning song again

..sometimes I think I feel
sometimes I wish I could just fall asleep
sometimes oh sweet sleep...
fall into the morning song
let it guide you all day long
I’ll lay with you for an hour or two
while in my head there rings a tune
for every moment there is a beat
from the rhythms started in your dreams
here's to looking out for number one
welcome to your day
go find your fun!

 

 

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